Starting Over

Well, here I am at 48 years old starting life over again. I am going to survive and start teaching again. I just pray that God will hear my plea for help and give me the strength to do this. I wonder if God ever gets tired of hearing me. I pray not because I sure need him alot.

The After Effect

Christmas is over. The cookies were made and are all gone. The gifts were carefully and thoughtfully bought, wrapped and opened. The once beautifully decorated tree stands lonely. The guests and family members are now safe inside their homes. The handmade cards were mailed, opened and tossed. All the past weeks of preparation are over. This always leaves me with a funny empty feeling. Then, I stop and remember what this holiday meant to me. It was the celebration of Jesus, love, family, and togetherness. Maybe that'd why when it's all over I feel lonely and sad. I miss my family all being together if not but for a few crazy, hectic, and exhausting hours.

Shopping

Today I spent hours finishing up Christmas shopping. It was the first time in 20 years I could do this on a week day, during the day. It was nice. People were happy, smiling. I saw a lot of school age children. I never knew so many kids were homeschooled. I was able to get what I needed without standing in lines and most importantly without being dead dog tired from a full day of teaching school. The sad part of my day was I was alone. All my friends still work and shopping is not as much fun without a friend.

Today

• Today was the first day for several things. This is my first time to create a page that was not for school. This is the first "blog" I have ever written. Today was the first time I bought scrapbooking papers and adhesives and punches. I hope to be creative and begin by making Christmas cards. So Today was a good day. I was released from my doctor so I am recovered. God is good and faithful.